Well, in two days I managed to complete 12 tests at work... Looking good.. I don't know quite what career path I want to do but Rising Stars is looking good...
Although I do still love my photography and have some at
http://thepsychicphotographer2013.blogspot.com/
and
http://thepsychicphotographer.blogspot.com/
If I get my photography anywhere as good as Amy and Sarahs from Mulberry then perhaps..
I went into the city with Georgia today which was really nice, and am currently cooking tomato and red pepper soup.
Tomorrow am gonna go for a bimble to Strumpshaw to look for the baby otter, I was lucky enough to get a photo of last years when it was young.
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Thursday, 20 February 2014
Monday, 17 February 2014
Music and pain
When I said I was going to start blogging again I wasn't actually planning on three or four posts a day lol, but...
Am sat here with headphones in listening to Katy B's "Crying For No Reason", and it got ne thinking, not something I make a habit of doing cos it makes your head hurt! Lol.
Whenever I hit a low point or if something bothers me I always use music to blow the cobwebs away.
Music has always played a huge part in my life. I used to be a huge music collector and had a huge collection of special editions, picture discs and demo tapes, including my own.
Funny how things change over the years.
Although my priorities changed over the years, music is still a massive part of me.
Some of the lyrics of Katy B's song are very emotive and most people can probably identify with them...
" crying for no reason feel the tears roll down, I felt strong but am I breaking now, crying for no reason cos I buried it deep, I made promises I could not keep"
Most people don't see the real me, I tend to play my cards pretty close to my chest, I had to learn to be like that when I was a teen, or I would get a beating, sometimes its difficult to change habits buried deep. That's where I lose myself in my music...
Thanks Katy B!!
Verse)
I pushed all my problems to the back of my mind
Then they surfaced in my dreams, vague on the light
I sweep all my issues to somewhere I can find
In hope that I’ll forget but there’s just so many times
(Verse)
Why can’t I be strong and just confront all my fears?
When my fear is hurting you I’m being sincere
But how many more days can I run? How many years
Emotions flooding and I was so soon and so clear
(Chorus)
Crying for no reason, feel the tears roll down
I felt strong but am I breaking now?
Crying for no reason ‘cause I buried it deep
I made promises I could not keep
‘Cause I never faced all the pain I caused
Now the pain is hitting me full force
(Verse)
I pushed all my problems to the back of my brain
A darkness deep inside where I just can’t find my way
How can I walk with a smile? Get on with my day
When I deceived myself pretending it’s all okay
(Verse)
I tried my best to hold it all together, I know
The strings have worn away and now I’m all exposed
I try and hide it all away on top of the shelf
I can lie to everyone but not to myself
(Chorus)
Crying for no reason, feel the tears roll down
I felt strong but am I breaking now?
Crying for no reason ‘cause I buried it deep
I made promises I could not keep
‘Cause I never faced all the pain I caused
Now the pain is hitting me full force
(Bridge)
Forgive me now ‘cause I said that I’ll be there for you, care for you
I let you down, I walked away
‘Cause there were things I couldn’t say to you, say to you
I’m breakin now
(x2)
I burned some bridges down
There must be some way out
The voices speak so loud
Will you forgive me now?
(Chorus)
Crying for no reason, feel the tears roll down
I felt strong but am I breaking now?
Crying for no reason ‘cause I buried it deep
I made promises I could not keep
‘Cause I never faced all the pain I caused
Now the pain is hitting me full force
Ps: Miss and love you Aunty Jean, lost you a week before the wedding but always in my heart xx
Am sat here with headphones in listening to Katy B's "Crying For No Reason", and it got ne thinking, not something I make a habit of doing cos it makes your head hurt! Lol.
Whenever I hit a low point or if something bothers me I always use music to blow the cobwebs away.
Music has always played a huge part in my life. I used to be a huge music collector and had a huge collection of special editions, picture discs and demo tapes, including my own.
Funny how things change over the years.
Although my priorities changed over the years, music is still a massive part of me.
Some of the lyrics of Katy B's song are very emotive and most people can probably identify with them...
" crying for no reason feel the tears roll down, I felt strong but am I breaking now, crying for no reason cos I buried it deep, I made promises I could not keep"
Most people don't see the real me, I tend to play my cards pretty close to my chest, I had to learn to be like that when I was a teen, or I would get a beating, sometimes its difficult to change habits buried deep. That's where I lose myself in my music...
Thanks Katy B!!
Verse)
I pushed all my problems to the back of my mind
Then they surfaced in my dreams, vague on the light
I sweep all my issues to somewhere I can find
In hope that I’ll forget but there’s just so many times
(Verse)
Why can’t I be strong and just confront all my fears?
When my fear is hurting you I’m being sincere
But how many more days can I run? How many years
Emotions flooding and I was so soon and so clear
(Chorus)
Crying for no reason, feel the tears roll down
I felt strong but am I breaking now?
Crying for no reason ‘cause I buried it deep
I made promises I could not keep
‘Cause I never faced all the pain I caused
Now the pain is hitting me full force
(Verse)
I pushed all my problems to the back of my brain
A darkness deep inside where I just can’t find my way
How can I walk with a smile? Get on with my day
When I deceived myself pretending it’s all okay
(Verse)
I tried my best to hold it all together, I know
The strings have worn away and now I’m all exposed
I try and hide it all away on top of the shelf
I can lie to everyone but not to myself
(Chorus)
Crying for no reason, feel the tears roll down
I felt strong but am I breaking now?
Crying for no reason ‘cause I buried it deep
I made promises I could not keep
‘Cause I never faced all the pain I caused
Now the pain is hitting me full force
(Bridge)
Forgive me now ‘cause I said that I’ll be there for you, care for you
I let you down, I walked away
‘Cause there were things I couldn’t say to you, say to you
I’m breakin now
(x2)
I burned some bridges down
There must be some way out
The voices speak so loud
Will you forgive me now?
(Chorus)
Crying for no reason, feel the tears roll down
I felt strong but am I breaking now?
Crying for no reason ‘cause I buried it deep
I made promises I could not keep
‘Cause I never faced all the pain I caused
Now the pain is hitting me full force
Ps: Miss and love you Aunty Jean, lost you a week before the wedding but always in my heart xx
Wedding
www.mulberryphotography.co.ukAt the beginning of February I married my beautiful soulmate and our wedding photos were done by the lovely Sarah & Amy from Mulberry Photography.
We haven't seen all the photos yet but are looking forward to them, however, there are a couple of sneak peaks on the link above.
We highly recommend them, they weren't in our face, they thought out of the box and they made us laugh all day. Real value for money!!
We haven't seen all the photos yet but are looking forward to them, however, there are a couple of sneak peaks on the link above.
We highly recommend them, they weren't in our face, they thought out of the box and they made us laugh all day. Real value for money!!
Trip Down Memory Lane..
I have always had wide and varied music tastes, quite eclectic really... Flower Duet to Metallica and everything inbetween... However, I do love a story in a song and absolutely love
Through The Barricades by Spandau Ballet
Mother doesn't know where love has gone
She says it must be youth
That keeps us feeeling strong
See it in her face, that's turned to ice
And when she smiles she shows
The lines of sacrifice
And now I know what they're saying
When the sun begins to fade
And we made our love on wasteland
And through the barricades
Father made my history
He fought for what he thought
Would set us somehow free
He tought me what to say in school
I learned off by heart
But now that's torn in two
And now I know what they're saying
In the music of the parade
We made our love on wasteland
And through the barricades
Born on different sides of life
We feel the same
And feel all of this strife
So come to me when I'm asleep
We'll cross the line
And dance upon the street
And now I know what they're saying
When the drums begin to fade
We made our love on wasteland
And through the barricades
Oh, turn around and I'll be there
There's a scar through my heart
But I'll bare it again
I thought? we were the human race
But we were just another border-line-case
And the stars reach down and tell us
That there's always one escape
I don't know where love has gone
And in this trouble land
Desperation keep us strong
Fridays child is full of soul
With nothing left to lose
There's everything to go
And now I know what they're are saying
It's a terrible beauty we've made
So we make our love on? wasteland
And through the barricades
Now I know what they're are saying
As hearts go to their graves
We made our love on? wasteland
And through the barricades.
Through The Barricades by Spandau Ballet
Mother doesn't know where love has gone
She says it must be youth
That keeps us feeeling strong
See it in her face, that's turned to ice
And when she smiles she shows
The lines of sacrifice
And now I know what they're saying
When the sun begins to fade
And we made our love on wasteland
And through the barricades
Father made my history
He fought for what he thought
Would set us somehow free
He tought me what to say in school
I learned off by heart
But now that's torn in two
And now I know what they're saying
In the music of the parade
We made our love on wasteland
And through the barricades
Born on different sides of life
We feel the same
And feel all of this strife
So come to me when I'm asleep
We'll cross the line
And dance upon the street
And now I know what they're saying
When the drums begin to fade
We made our love on wasteland
And through the barricades
Oh, turn around and I'll be there
There's a scar through my heart
But I'll bare it again
I thought? we were the human race
But we were just another border-line-case
And the stars reach down and tell us
That there's always one escape
I don't know where love has gone
And in this trouble land
Desperation keep us strong
Fridays child is full of soul
With nothing left to lose
There's everything to go
And now I know what they're are saying
It's a terrible beauty we've made
So we make our love on? wasteland
And through the barricades
Now I know what they're are saying
As hearts go to their graves
We made our love on? wasteland
And through the barricades.
Sunday, 16 February 2014
Readings..
One of my favourite writers is Kate Mosse. The Languedoc Trilogy are amazing works of fiction. "Labyrinth" was made into a 2-part tv epic last year, I hope they follow it with "Sepulchre" and "Citadel" as they are both excellent books.
For Christmas my better half bought me Kate Mosse's latest offering "The Mistletoe Bride & other haunting tales". I have just picked it up now to read, I am enjoying it so far but will let you know what I think when finished.
For Christmas my better half bought me Kate Mosse's latest offering "The Mistletoe Bride & other haunting tales". I have just picked it up now to read, I am enjoying it so far but will let you know what I think when finished.
a new blog!!!
well... Kinda!
I've used blogspot for years and then tried WordPress but have gotten fed up of log in problems so am starting another on here, I will share both my writings with you, and some of my photography with you. I hope you enjoy and feel free to comment or contact me.
however, if you spam me with viagra and medical sales, or promises to save my soul, which incidentally is just fine, you will be deleted, blocked and reported. I am not interested! Capiche? Comprende?
good..
I've used blogspot for years and then tried WordPress but have gotten fed up of log in problems so am starting another on here, I will share both my writings with you, and some of my photography with you. I hope you enjoy and feel free to comment or contact me.
however, if you spam me with viagra and medical sales, or promises to save my soul, which incidentally is just fine, you will be deleted, blocked and reported. I am not interested! Capiche? Comprende?
good..
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